I guess I'm back on the shore after a really wild trip on the sea of chaos and new experiences...

I still cannot really believe that it's my second month at university, and though there are still questions about the darn scedule, I finally found peace with everything. I'm starting to feel something like a weekly routine, which I really value, being a person who digs the feeling of safety and steadiness.
I even - and that is kinda the point of that entry - found the inner peace to spend time on new manipulations and I'm eager to work my ass off on good stock.
I also might start doing my own photo shootings again.

Plus, I started to ecxessively use art ( including writing and drawing ) as a way of distraction - After two amazing weeks, my boyfriend just had to return to his base. So I try not to think about it too much.
It's been almost 4 years that we are doing this misery dance of half-hearted breakups which nobody really ment, sorrows because of his job and the horrible farewells on every end of his rare free time. So slowly I feel like I'm getting stronger about it. Though I've been physically sick the fist times and crying for days, now I manage to get over it pretty good...
( Wow, thinking about it, he just has 14 months left! 14 months of 5 YEARS! Gosh, time is running! )


So, life is really kinda settling down again.
Incoming manipulation assignments, increased work and engagement on our local youth care programme, yeah, I guess everything's gonna be ok.